Quintessential Thinker
she was standing tall
amongst a crowd, dressed in red,
she wore a bright wide smile smeared across her face
her cheeks highlighted with strokes of pink and red.
surrounded by green all over , she stood out
in different slots of red, pink and even white

for days she felt the love
she felt alive
she felt the rain on her face
making her love life

nothing seemed to have bothered her
not even the darkness of the day

anywhere she went
she'd light up a room
filled with huge smiles and delicate giggles
and the warmth of her love.

forever she wanted to be this way
but forever was too far away.

a day had come , one not prepared for
her worst nightmare had come alive
she lost all hope and began to loose her colour
she went from bright red to pale pink.

as time flew, she changed , her beauty had been gone
she lost the charm , the smile , everything.

slowly and delicately she crouched down
into her lap hiding herself,
her face under her palms
hiding her blackened face.

she looked down in despair
at the floor, she was staring wanting to be alive again

the day had come
she wasn't ready to give in so easy
but only a miracle could save her
she breathed her last breath.

she fell.
her unforgetable smile,faded and blackened.





Quintessential Thinker
walking on still waters
flying without wings aimlessly
living life that I've never dreamt of living
where there's no fear nor sorrow not a speck of darkness
no negativity but only positivity
happiness and glee fill the place.

a land where there's nothing but solace
peace,harmony and the natural surrounding
a land where there's no limitation for anything
not for freedom, nor free will.

wanting to live in a place I've always dreamt of
a place i long for,
hidden in the deepest corners of my imagination
and finally i find my Utopia.

living in my dreams, for too long
i get sucked out of my imagination
back to reality and my Utopia goes crashing down
and there's no sign of its existence any more.

now, it's a place filled with more sorrow than before
and lesser happiness.
it's a place filled with large specks of darkness
that over shadow the colours.

it's place where my biggest fears come alive
and my courage to face life reduces
it's a place, i see losing its originality
a place where I'm losing myself.

it's a place that i will always long for,
a place where i am myself the most
where no one can reach me
a place where i love being me.

Utopia, it's fading,
it's vanishing
within me, without me
It's crumbling,it's disappearing
into the dusty skies.

Utopia,Utopia
my Utopia lost within me,
somewehere unreachable,
somewhere i cannot go.
Utopia,Utopia lost!
Quintessential Thinker
There's a lack of enthusiasm within me
i don't know why but;
but i cannot seem to enjoy myself,
even while doing what i love the most.

there's a lot of zeal missing within me
a certain something but I'm not sure what it is
but it sure is making me feel totally and completely incomplete,
and sometimes numb and devoid of having fun.

there's an empty spot for inspiration inside me
that's waiting to be filled,
may be with something or someone even;
but there seems no such miracle to happen as yet.

there's a certain stillness in the air
that's making me feel weary
like something is creeping upon me
and closing in on me.

there are so many questions running through my mind
about me, about my life
about everything i do and am doing
but sadly, everything's left unanswered.

i ask, in hope to get some kind of an answer,

where is the enthusiasm that keeps me alive?
where is the zeal, that makes me look forward for tomorrow?
where is the inspiration that makes me go out there and live my life with freewill?

where is the enthusiasm that was my daily dose of an adrenaline rush?
where is the zeal that made life sparkle and colourful?
where is the inspiration that made me love what i do or did?

where?
where is all that i challenged myself to live life all over again?
most of all, where is the courage that i lack so immensely that makes me move ahead in life?