tear drops trickle down her face
her eyes red with colours of sorrow
her mind , filled with confusion
not knowing what to believe
her heart, beating slow yet feeling numb
only lifeless now

staring at herself,
cursing the person she sees
not liking who she is
hating what she looks like
trying to stop her smile from fading
vanishing....and her... becoming cold

black and grey seem to rule her life
colourless that's what it seemed
pained by her own delusions
wanting to be left aloof
but at the same time wanting to be with someone.

hearing things she didn't want to listen to
saying things she didn't mean
being someone she didn't want to be
laying there on the bed, staring at nothing
walking like a zombie
almost dead like and lifeless...

sitting amidst the confusion
and of her own darkness
discoloured by herself
unwanted, unloved and unreal
that's what she felt she was
empty and lonely.

hopeless and insensitive
frozen from within now
insecure and apprehensive
timid about herself
surreal and strange
everything was that for her.

astray in the midst of her dark fantasy
filled with the shades of black and black alone
unhappiness and wretchedness,
misery and despair, sorrow and desolation
blanketed her, like the leaves;
blanketed the ground after spring.

used and thrown away:
resembling a tissue paper
one year of pure love
turned out to be a joke
he was hers, she thought but
taken that's what he was, all the while, ten years ago!

blinded by love
she grew worthless
and felt tormented
hidden in the depths of herself
a priceless whore
that's what he made her.

distress and anguish
tore her apart
pain and agony
shattered her inside
but she lived everyday,
again and again, feeling just the same.